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All the &longs;cenes of my pa&longs;t life return
fre&longs;h upon my memory. I examine
every circum&longs;tance as they pa&longs;s in review before
me—I &longs;ee nothing to cau&longs;e any disagreeable
or unwelcome &longs;en&longs;ations—no terrour
upbraids me—no reproaching con&longs;cience
&longs;tings my bo&longs;om as I reflect on the actions
that are pa&longs;t. With her I expected happiness—
I have expected a vain thing—for there
is none—She is gone—gone to a far country—
&longs;he is preparing a place for me—a place of
unutterable bli&longs;s—But ah! an immea&longs;urable
gulph lies between us—Who can tell the

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di&longs;tance that &longs;eparates us? What labour—
what toil—what pain mu&longs;t be endured in
traver&longs;ing the thorny paths that lead to her
ble&longs;&longs;ed abode?—And will &longs;he not receive me
into tho&longs;e happy regions with as much joy—
with as &longs;incere a welcome—if I cut &longs;hort my
journey?—And will not the Eternal Dispenser
of Good, pardon the awful deed that frees
me from this world of mi&longs;ery—the deed by
which I obtrude my&longs;elf into his divine presence?

WHY mu&longs;t I wait the lingering hand of
the grifly me&longs;&longs;enger to &longs;ummon me to the
world above?

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